“What needs to happen now is to get lost in someone, get lost in the idea that there are no faults to what they are. Get lost in their souls… Its a love story that only ends when you end it…”—Judson D James
“I am the master and commander of my own destiny. I control where I go, outside forces may influence how I get there or what I do on the path to my destination, But In the end I answer to my dreams, my fears, My Successes, and My Failures.”—Judson D James
That is actually laughable… Crushes? Wow…. I have yet to meet a female worthy of a crush… I would like to meet one, one or two come to mind. But I have no current romantic interests, or ladies that I have met in person that interest me, or whatever. That is kind of sad, and pathetic… But hey once again Welcome to Adulthood, it sucks and it is sometime miserable, mixed in with fantastic people you think will never leave you and then they stop calling, and the fun stops, and what do you know you are alone again, and all you have left is the people you occasionally chat with on the internet…
Like I said pathetic.
"Horrible Nightmare Visions!" "That’s Called Life Kid Sit Down…"
“I maintain. Reality is nothing but how you perceive things, if you perceive things to be one way they will be, but if you fight that perception and substitute it for another more positive perception, that perception will be the truth… So I am fighting….”—Judson D James
What was your longest relationship and what ended it….
If you can consider this a relationship then so be it… When I first arrived in San Diego, I arrived single, and ready to mingle…. Did not know how hard that actually was for a Marine….
The Marine Corps Ball Rolled around, still single, and alone… I met this girl… She was pretty enough, probably above my standards in looks, but that is not the point… We where “Together” for about 5 Months(?) I want to say… What ended it was she was a FLAKY BITCH… I did not mind that she was a Drug user (Actually I did, I don’t consider Weed a drug, She did other stuff, and it was very unbecoming…)
Her communication skills was horrible, and she was going no where fast. So I stopped talking to her, She didn’t mind because she made no effort to contact me again…
That is actually laughable to consider what she and I had a relationship…
Close and distant… knew how to make me cry. A lot of my personality traits are from him. He was a strong Male figure. Probably why I don’t feel the need to prove my masculinity by going out and banging everything that walks… I just can’t do that, I don’t see the fun in it, and it is a waste of my energy….
"When She has been able to control your emotions, she has already won."
-Judson D James
I hate that females have a VAST, I don’t use that word lightly, I mean they can control how I feel with little to no effort… And it sucks. I hate it, I hate it with an undying passion. I hate that the entire year I have been in San Diego, I have yet to find at least a barely-semi-serious girl friend, if that makes any sense. I would like to thank all the beautiful girls out there for break me before I even meet you. I did not envision my love life being this way when I was a bright teary eyed 18 year old… It is resembling more or less a burning city, like when fire codes were not National, and cites were having fire epidemics. But there is hope with fire because even after everything burns down, it is easy to rebuild.
Yes, just thought I would let my lovely reader(S)(? Maybe I am kidding myself?) That I will be leaving tomorrow for the Fantastic Death Star, the USS BOXER, If you do not know what that is Google it… Don’t fret I have some posts queued because I was bored, and had nothing else to do…
But For your viewing pleasure I will post a picture of the living arrangements on a United States Navy War Ship, that is used to project power from ship to shore… From the Picture you can see how much space I get to live in and call this my home for about 2 weeks… Lovely… Stay Positive and Keep Pushing.
just wanted to thank you for the advice you left in my the ask box.
oh no problem. I definitely have the same type of problem, when it comes to people I know, because I am a pacifist. But I do know how to deal with those type of people. I’m no push over, only when it comes to the ladies.
“Tell her that this is the way the world works, I mean some times you’re up and sometimes you’re down. Sometimes You are Flush and sometimes you’re bust. When things are looking good, it is never as good as it seems. When things are looking down, They can always get worse. This is the way the World works….”—Judson D James
Hmm that is hard to say. Honestly I am kind of distant from my family. I love my mom, but We have been through some rough patches… What Family hasn’t? When I was young I was more resistant to what she had to say, and quite honestly probably resented her for making my dad leave. I am my fathers son… Now I think with distance and time old wounds heal…. My relationship with her was rocky in teenage years, and smoothed out when I enlisted in the Marine Corps…
(or l’esprit d’escalier) (staircase wit) is thinking of a clever comeback when it is too late. The phrase can be used to describe a riposte to an insult or any witty remark that comes to mind too late to be useful—after one has left the scene of the encounter. The phenomenon is usually accompanied by a feeling of regret at not having thought of it when it was most needed or suitable.
Where you barely roll out of bed, you want to hit your alarm like 100 more times, but can’t… So you tell your self, Today is going to be a good day. Carpe Diem Ladies and Gents, Make your Lives EXTRAORDINARY. Trying to feel like a super star every morning…
“Manifestation. I like that word, because a varied amount of things are a Manifestation of one thing or another. My Actions are a Manifestation of my Moods. They are also a Manifestation of How I was raised or trained, what ever the case, Actions are Manifestations of deep seated Feelings.”—Judson D James
I was born in New York City. I love that city. I miss it with a fiery passion. I miss that energy of that city. I miss that people were mean because they can be mean, they weren’t pretend nice, and pretend friends. Sure there are fakes where ever you go, but there people have no problem being fake to your face, and letting you know they don’t like you…. I miss that city…
I am going to break it down like this, We are young and so full of love, yet so afraid to love, and be loved. So we leave it up to single serving encounters, that leave us fulfilled ever so briefly.
I have had my share of single serving encounters in my young life. All of them I kind of wish I never encountered, but hey when you are young and a girl bats her eyes at you your heart sinks. And in some cases you do it because you are pissed at yourself for not finding the one.
One thing I hate more than anything is when people tell you, ‘don’t worry She is out there’ When they themselves have someone. At that point I want to strangle them, and tell them to fuck off and get bent and all these other hateful things. But I end up telling them “Yea…” I hate when I know I am the better choice for a person, and they go with the guy that makes me go “aijbfaliugbfliudwbliusbvlusbiluvbliudsvbed”
Fuck… ” this kind of honest makes me go a big rubbery one.”
I can’t help being a sentimental asshole. It isn’t working in my favor….
I present this to you, don’t be afraid to to love. Be Bold, Be Brief, Be Gone…
Don’t allow me the opportunity to start talking because I will probably ruin this before it starts, unless you are willing to accept my initial fuckups for what they are fuckups, and continue on with this to see where it goes… fell in love with your eyes, then your mind, then your soul.
I really, REaHlly hate that I scoff at the idea of love (it even makes me think Ewww immediately after typing that word)…
I don’t know why I just seem to have the stunning inability to find it. I hate Sappy Love songs, and Freaking Love them at the same time, because I know I have a huge capacity For the ability of Love (ew again), but I think I am too socially awkward to continuously prove to someone, that I truly do love them….
I have no problem with being fully and wholly honest because I know maybe all of zero people will ever read this, even if they look at it in a passing glance their mind will instantly be turn off by the honest goey discussion of Love (EWW Three times…)
I’m just tired of being wrong all the time just because I’m a guy. I mean how many times can everybody tell you that you’re the oppressive, prejudiced enemy before you give up and become the enemy. I mean a male, chauvinist pig isn’t born, hes made, and more and more of them are being made by women. Women are right. You’re wrong. You get used to the idea.
I am used to the Idea that beautiful women will always believe all guys are the same. Frankly I don’t know how to change that because eventually if you let a person talk long enough they will make an ass out of themselves. Some Actions are repeated out of sheer genes, maybe it is part of our DNA to be assholes? What ever the case, ME as a Gentleman can throw in the towel and become ‘That guy’ (the D-bag). Or Me being me, me being a fighter, I will fight that trend…
Phone NASA. Their phone number is (713)483-3111. Explain that it’s very important that you get away as soon as possible.
If they do not cooperate, phone any friend you may have in the White House -(202)456-1414- to have a word on your behalf with the guys at NASA.
If you don’t have any friends in the White House, phone the Kremlin (ask the overseas operator for 0107-095-295-9051). They don’t have any friends there either (at least none to speak of), but they do seem to have a little influence, so you may as well try.
If that Fails, phone the Pope for guidance. His telephone number is 011-39-6-6982, and I gather his switchboard is infallible.
If all these attempts fail, flag down a passing flying saucer and explain that it’s vitally important you get a away before your phone bill arrives.
Article 1 Section 8: Empowers Congress to “Promote the Progress of Science and the Useful Arts” by providing “Authors and inventors the Exclusive right to their creations….” Is Music considered Useful Arts? or Science at that??